It’s Muddy

Some days my head is muddy. Today is one of those days. It’s not muddy because I’m tired or overwhelmed. It’s muddy because I have so many thoughts running around that are stirring stuff up and making the waters of my brain a little muddy. And as you know, when water is muddy, you can’t see through it. What I desperately need right now is clarity and I don’t have it.

What has me so muddy? Apparently there is more to learn about the selfishness vs. selflessness that I wrote about last week. And about choices we make – both knowingly and unknowingly. And how we handle (or avoid) conflict as adults. And how we speak truthfully and lovingly without hurting someone’s feelings. And how we determine when we have done all we can and the problem lies with someone else and not us. And what we do if the problem is us. And so much more that I cannot even begin to put into words.

I’m thinking about the Christ that leaves the 99 sheep to find the one that is lost.

I’m thinking about the Christ who tells us to settle disputes quickly and be reconciled.

I’m thinking about the Christ who humbled Himself, even to the point of dying on a cross, for people who didn’t (and don’t) deserve it.

I’m thinking about the Christ who calls us to speak the truth in love, not sugar coat it or avoid it.

I’m thinking about the Christ who pointed out incorrect thinking to the Pharisees.

I’m thinking about the Christ who spent His time with the “least of these.”

I’m thinking about the Christ who is love.

I don’t have much of a take-away for you, my readers, today except this: we have to struggle with our questions and ask them of the Christ who is always listening and then we have to sit and listen for the answer, which doesn’t necessarily come in the way or time that we expect. So today, I will stay muddy for a while longer and wait for Christ to calm the waters and bring clarity.

Where are you needing clarity in your life today?