Vicious Cycle

It’s been a rough month. Various illnesses. Injured leg. Depression. Lack of motivation. Lack of energy. Less than stellar eating habits.

I know that illness can trigger a bout with depression.

I know that not exercising can make the depression worse.

I know that depression leads to lack of motivation and energy.

I know that lack of motivation and energy means shortcuts – particularly when it comes to eating.

I also know that when I am eating well and exercising  I feel better and have more motivation and energy, which fights off the depression.

But in the midst of the depression, it is really hard to push through, get out of bed, exercise, cook healthy meals, and keep busy when I would much rather sleep later, eat crap, lay on my couch and watch TV.

In other words, it’s a vicious cycle that is really hard to break.

But today is the first day of my favorite month. Why is it my favorite month? Because three of my favorite things happen this month: St. Patrick’s Day, the first day of Spring, and my birthday. And I don’t want this month to be another rough one. So today, I start again. I got out of bed and ran. I am cutting out all sugar and bread. I am back to planning meals and logging what goes into my mouth. I am going to schedule my time at home somewhat to stay busy so I don’t default to the couch.

I am going to break this cycle. But I can’t do it alone. I need the Lord’s help and strength. I need prayer. I need friends who will keep me accountable.

And I need to write and post this blog post. Because telling myself all these things won’t help. But maybe telling you all will.

What kinds of struggles are you facing today? I’d love to hear from you!